Minds Eye Of Life

Today I want to write something which may not be termed rational or practical in real term basis. Let’s talk about those hidden dreams about miracle, the angels, fate and destiny. Well the world on large is divided between the believers and the non believers. These are the only two races I see the world in this context. Many say Destiny doesn’t exist but we script our own destiny. Everything happens because you make it happen. Happiness and sadness is all created by an individual. Then how would you describe hard fought efforts of a person going in wane and the inability to transform every plan into reality. Surely there is an element of luck involved between the haves and have not’s of this world. I don’t intend to make this all sound aggressive. Every time I go through those tough phases of life. This seams more often than not in my case... ha ha ha... I always have this feeling of receiving signs from my surrounding. These signs have always helped me tide through those tough phases...

Imperfection in a way is beautiful! I'm not a perfect person, No shame in admitting that. I've my own share of good and bad... plus and minus... Its just that I suppose everyone finds it hard to admit their weakness and negative .... I guess its alright... We are not all born with perfection. Yes over the period of years I have erred many a times! Some decisions of mine have not hit the bulls eye. Lost few good Friends ... made some new... and Life moves on.... Why regret for what has happened. For it is for those wrong moves I made I learned new lessons. And why do I have to write all this..... Its just that I've accepted the fact that I have got to accept other people the same way.... As they are.. the way they are... I'm not intoxicated neither have I been payed to say this.... I simply enjoy writing what I feel is right... cause its my blog... Freedom to express my thoughts!

I was travelling by the local train, was on my way back home. This was yesterday, 30th December. I said to myself the year of 2008 is coming to an end tomorrow. And here it is today, 31st December. The year was significant to me in many ways. It has passed off quickly, I hardly realised how the time has passed by. A new set of learning’s imbibed by my teacher – LIFE. I have been a good student I suppose if not the best. Honestly this blog may be too small to accommodate all the happening and the learning’s. Over the years I have seen myself evolve as a person. Constantly changing, hopefully all these changes have been for my good. I don’t proclaim to be super intelligent or a saint. I’m just a student who has always been open to learn something new. I’m happy for whatever I have been blessed with. I become sad too, when greeted with trouble and failures. But then I find myself putting the pieces together and getting ready for the next phase. Failures are just a part of life not the end...

[Written as on 26.12.2008] Today I sit in front of my computer confused and lost. I have wondered many a times why things happen the way they happen. Tried to find a rational reason for the same. But I failed most of the times to understand why. Somewhere deep within myself I hear a voice tell me, “Whatever is happening let it happen. Just take one day at a time. Every new day is a gift blessed upon you.” I had typed mere 75 words and then my dog, Jimmy started to bark uncontrollably. This is quiet unusual considering he never barks unless there is someone at the door. They say dogs have a genuine 6th sense. Is he trying to warn me against something not so pleasant going to happen? I hoped against the hope that I might be wrong. I asked my mom to check on my sister who has gone to college. It turned out she was fine. Then I asked her to call dads office. To see if he was doing fine. Alas! This can’t be true, but the happening can’t be changed they say. My father’s office colleague info...

I'm just getting back home in few minutes... winding up the weekend with a smile! Had been out 2 meet couple of my good old frenz ... One of them is flying 2 middle east in a week. I'm happy for her. I'm sure she is gonna shine as usual in the beautiful night sky... just like a star! We shared a great time when in WNS ....It was fun being able 2 meet 2 good frenz of mine... Great cherishing the old memories of WNS ! On my way back, I took the bus from station to home... Ye off late its gonna be more of bus and less of rick! Call it the impact of recession.... Or should I say bluntly.. can't afford the luxury all the time yaar ! he he he he.... Ye I came across a beautiful girl in RED! Hmmmm ... But then her beauty couldn't hold me captivated for long... I was swept away my the innocent smile of two kids in the same bus.... So true Innocence is bliss and beautiful too... Cheers!

26/11/2008 This date is always going to be remembered by me as for years to come. Those 60hrs of life which I spent largely in front my TV. I was sitting on the couch, watching the heart breaking, blood bath in the heart of Mumbai. Innocent life’s coming to an end all prey for the blood game of 10 odd terrorists. There was anguish within me but had no way to express it. And the idiotic senseless political blame game began soon after. Heads might have rolled amongst the people in power, but that’s no solution. Its never going to bring back the dead. Its never going to enough to heal bruises not just physical injuries of victims. But also the mental agony and bruises on our minds. I can’t speak for everyone, but for me Its definitely not going to be the same again. There is just one life gifted to me. And I’m determined to make a difference, big or small way, for my society. People might forget all that happened. Get back into the cocoon they have been living in. Never introspecting t...

The air is filled with the fragrance of a new beginning, When old dreams die its time for a new beginning. Don’t be shattered by the failures of life, Just move on there is going to be a new sunrise.